I haven’t
blogged for a number of months because I haven’t written anything for a couple
of months. I always thought writer’s block was a myth – something
procrastinating writers used to justify their lack of output. Well it’s no
myth. My words abandoned me last November and I have been so lonely without
them. I blamed my new medication, thinking it had dulled my senses and rendered
me incapable of opening myself up to the truth that comes when I am writing
well. I worried that I might never write again.
But Oh Joy!
The creativity started to flow again recently! And I am swimming with it - caught
in its current, buoyed up and perfectly safe. I cannot force this to happen. It
has a life of its own. I often sit looking at a blinking cursor or
contemplate a white page waiting until the first sentence comes. There are many false starts but when the work
is going well my fingers can hardly keep up with the words that spill onto the
page. The marshalling of them into a coherent whole will come later, much later
- on the seventh or eight draft. But for now I just write. And write and write
and write.
This piece was
written today, February 3rd in St Maur’s Church in Rush in North
County Dublin. The church has been converted into a library and is a beautiful
space to work in. There is just the right amount of noise in it as librarians
and borrowers amble through their day. When
I lift my head from the screen I can look at beautiful wood, a vaulted
ceiling or magnificent stained glass windows. It is incredibly energising. The
wind was high and howling around the
outside of the church today suiting a piece I was working on that needed that energy.
It fed the writing, I could barely keep up with it. It is an amazing
feeling. Pray God it doesn’t desert me for too long ever again
Good stuff, Evelyn. I relate to most of your posts related to technique and craft. Trying to hold myself to 500 words a day of the creative stuff at the mo, but it's slow going, unless, as you say, you're on a roll. I loved the one a while back about mentally filing information (or whatever) away for future use - perhaps even many years into the future, when out it ocmes onto the screen in story form. Hope you're well.
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